"At the end of the day,
there are some things you just can’t help but talk about.
Some things we just don’t want to hear,
and some things we say because we can’t be silent any longer.
Some things are more than what you say,
they’re what you do.
Some things you say cause there’s no other choice.
Some things you keep to yourself.
And not too often, but every now and then,
some things simply speak for themselves."

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Today, I pass by three different places and recalled the memories I had with different people. Sigh.


Separators are put in already, not really hurting and they're kinda bearable. Makes me super cautious when eating though cause I'm afraid they'll fall out.

On a brighter note, it's only on the upper row of teeth cause I only need braces for the upper row. =]

However, it also means that I can't enjoy BBQ food during the chalet next week...

Pulau Tekong trip tomorrow and I'm so not looking forward to it. Urgh. Have to miss dance and helping out in Staff and Student Games. What can we learn at Tekong anyway?!

Morning class tomorrow and I shall not be late.

Goodnight.

LOL at Kenneth AKA BangsBoy.

HIM: What’s wrong?

HER: Nothing.

HIM: Why won’t you tell me?

HER: Why should i tell you?

HIM: You used to tell me everything...and I told you everything. What happened to us?

HER: ...You stopped caring.

Had a sudden craving for sushi this afternoon and I recieved a text for sushi in the evening.

Awesome.

Satisfied my craving for chocolates though I'm still coughing away.

'And sometimes being there doesn't mean anything,
cause that's all you'll ever do.
Just there.'

And I read the chatlogs over and over again.

I didn't mean it when I said nothing much, nothing important.
I just...didn't know how to say it.

I feel like a loser.

I just wrote a post and spend three packets of tissue while at it.

And it hurts to know that...

Or does it actually?

I've been thinking alot these few days but nothing's sorted out. Which sucks.

Perhaps the reason why I'm not telling anyone 'bout what's going on in my mind is because I think that no one will ever understand the whole situation, I don't even know where to begin.

And it's so easy to cry these day. When I'm alone, I think and then I cry. Which is annoying cause I don't cry easily.

It's hard to put on a smile and pretend everything's fine when everything's not.

Want to say so much but yet I can't say them. Urgh.

'They say sometimes people put walls up, not because they want to block people out, but because they want to see who cares enough to knock them down.'

I guess I'll never understand why certain people will do certain things, say certain stuff and think in a particular way. But, that's life I suppose.

No, I'm not fine, and am nowhere near fine, not gonna deny that. But I'll be okay, eventually.

I needa start taking care of myself and stop taking MCs.

Fab, I'm down with fever, again.

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Maybe I should get a MC for tomorrow,
coughing and sneezing like mad currently. =(

And it's all over.

WAVES 14 has officially ended last night.

Suddenly all the hard work and effort put into it seems worthwhile. The trainings everyday even from 12mn to 4am in the morning, reaching home late every night, falling ill during WAVES period, skipping meals cause of trainings, getting bruises and floorburns all over, missing an entire week of classes and even falling on my head while doing the fankick was worth it, cause I know I did a perfect fankick on performance day. ^^

Mum said I've been dancing too much and haven't been getting enough rest, going for dance when I've a fever of 39 Degrees, but like I said, it's all worth it.

No one will ever understand how much we've been through to put up the 2 hours show last night. But this is dance, you practice countless times just for that one moment on stage.

I'm proud to be part of SDZ. =]

This week was not only filled w dance but I guess it has also been a very emotional week for me. I cried alot this week, that I admit, over many different things. I keep alot to myself, maybe that's why I end up crying so much cause perhaps it's a way to relieve my stress. When I received Shan's message this morning, tears started streaming down my cheeks. She made me realised how much things I've kept hidden from everyone, that I was putting up a front all these while and how long I've not truly smiled.

Maybe it's because I felt so alone.

Thanks to this fab bunch of people who came to support. You guys are awesome. <3

Okay guess I needa go catch up on my work. Didn't attend a single class this week cause I was sick and there was dance, am lagging way behind.

Goodbye all. Goodbye WAVES. And,

Hello to the mundane school life.

I need to start eating properly, like proper meals from now on. Have been skipping dinners or just eating half my meals lately. Makes me hungry at night, at like this kinda timing and I'm wayyyyyyy too lazy to go cook mee now.

On a brighter note though, I finally finished sewing my sequins. Like finally. 3 nights on it. Hahaha.

Okay bye, needa wake up early tomorrow to do tutorial. ^^